IVAN 
I want to write to you, dear, sweet Ivan.
And I do not know where to start.
So I start from the beginning, since, on the terrace of Montereggio I was enchanted look at you, and I shamelessly said: "How beautiful you are." Citro
I was immediately criticized by saying that I gave you another reason to tirartela!
But it was certainly not so!
You've always been a simple person, with the hand. Only
that from that day has created a special bond between us!
There were many years between us, as well as a husband (my) and a company (your).
But my sincerity in my reveal a predilection toward you, a kind of "passion" nonsensical, brought us closer as a brother to a sister.
And you've always been generous with compliments to me, from what was noble knight!
And we've always relied on Citro, Cree and me, love all your troubles, which have been so many!
Thou hast loved much, and you were very loved!
You were an almost fixed in that of Montereggio, especially in summer, Bozzo to where we would swim in cold waters, and in the square when we told our ups and downs and your great collection of mushrooms!
How do you like to go for mushrooms!
And you promised me we would have accompanied you in secret places, to avoid the shame of being dry mouth as often happened to me and Giggino.
You knew all the right places, and with Paul, your beloved father, who left early in the morning and disappeared into the woods of chestnut!
Ricordo una sera che ci hai invitato a casa tua e ci hai fatto vedere il “bottino” steso su varie reti ad asciugare!
Che invidia, al confronto dei tre funghi in avanzato stato di decomposizione, che avevamo trovato Giggino ed io, dopo avere girovagato come disperati in luoghi dove a fatica si avventurano i cinghiali!
E poi è successo che, quasi in contemporanea, ci siamo ammalati tutti e due….
Tu all’intestino…
Io al sangue…
E le nostre conversazioni hanno preso una piega diversa, una piega strana…..
Io, all’inizio ero incazzata, frastornata e disperata, anche perché avevo appena perso mio fratello.
E tu, così giovane e con un
baby baby ... I had taken such a desperate ..
Until I saw you .... after the first terrible surgery following which, as a story, you were in a sense, "marinated" the gut!
However ... despite all that had passed ....
Even at such a tragic, had found a source to draw from and, together with love for your son and your wonderful big family, you claimed to the last breath: LOVE.
you're in love and then you fell in love again. And even if you
riammalato, you've been in love with life and a sweet and beautiful girl, until the last breath!
My "Sweet Zory," as he liked to call you, you went to get up in Bulgaria, among other consideration, and that gave you all of herself.
The last time we met, you knew confronted with a new surgery and new radio and chemo again.
"The others who were with me are all dead," you told me!
But You had a strength, a love of life and a courage that, by make me feel a real Merdin!
I've never seen discouraged and if you were not sure you gave him a look!
And the news on your state of health I learned from mutual friends, from Facebook on which you did occasionally peek, if only to reassure us.
On May 31, after a long silence, he wrote: "Hello everyone ...... I had a month to go crazy screaming ...... say ...... the continuous care .... but it is hard ..... I can not even write fatigue .... greetings to all. "
And then I started to get ready .... I think we did it all.
Surely someone has prayed for you.
I have not been able to.
And then came the news!
You went away Saturday night, I think.
Your dear mother, Virgilia, told me that it was time to let go!
Medicine, along with your tenacity and love of those around you, you have got five long years.
Your "Sweet Zory "can not find peace and your father Paul is very angry with the Almighty!
And how he's wrong?
Your place, at 37, was being sprawled on a beach playing with your child!
O cruise with children, "as you wanted so much lately!
But someone or something has ordered differently!
In any case, you really never die!
Too many people you're always in my heart!
I take care as I can, your" Sweet Zory, a fragile creature who had the good fortune to be loved by you!
But who is to carry on his shoulders a burden too heavy for his young age!
You had promised not to die!
I always thought that I had lied.
But, looking back, you dear Ivan, you believed until the very end!
Why you should NEVER give up and always believe! This is the BIG
EREDIRA 'you left.
not to live, even though cancer patients, with the handbrake on!
must put them in life!
And this will always think that in the darkest hours, inevitably, I expected!
You, together with my brother Sergio, you've been two great examples of people who have suffered unspeakable pain, never lose hope and confidence in the future. Where
not get the medicine, we must reach us.
And the importance of our stay on this land, does not depend on the number of years that we are, but the intensity with which we live them!
Every day like the last one! Amando
until the last breath!
Thanks Ivan, that it existed!
E 'was an honor to know ya!
I love you FOREVER!
photo: Ivan happy with his "Sweet Zory"
